Existential crises aside, I wish a wonderful end of year for all of us.

It's the penultimate day of the year and I giving my existential crises, love it.

But what matters is that ... In real? The human is more despicable each day? Yes, he is. It does something to change that? No, humans do not make any fucking thing to improve and those who do are simply disappearing. Do not want to spend to understand that I am better than anyone but that's the reality.

Everyday I am more amazed with humanity. Just that.

Some people are simply born miserably despicable, do not waste your time with them 'cause nothing you do can save them unless they themselves want.

I realized that people can be your friends today for what you have and can just stab you tomorrow for the same reason.

My objective for the next year is be a better person and read more books. Yeah, definitely read more books.

"Se eu esquecesse as coisas de vez em quando, todos nos estaríamos um pouco mais felizes.”

— Os 13 Porquês.  

Honestly? I'm afraid to be happy. After all, every human being has fear of the unknown.

I know that love is a feeling that is only taken seriously when the people who are closest to you to say but I really love you guys, seriously. And if by chance it is not love, it is the closest feeling of it I've ever had for you guys. Probably is love, after all, you know, I'm a very emotional person.

Well, it's Christmas, the year is ending, and I just wanted to say it was a good year for me because I could express myself through this blog and mostly because you guys were here to hear (read) my deepest thoughts and understand them (or not, whatever) the important thing is that I overcame all the bad days, I experienced all the good days, and all of these days you guys were here, thanks for everything, I hope I have helped you guys just like you guys helped me, even silently and anonymously.

Well, it's christmas.

I wish everything could be perfect.

I want more that I can handle, I always do that.

Well, I don't know how much weird is, but one thing that I know about this is that is hurtful to your insanity.

How much weird is be in love with someone that you don't even know?

Make sure that you are always busy with something 'cause being alone with your thoughts can be dangerous.

I realized that I'm growing, time is passing, things are changing and nothing will ever be like before. I know sometimes we want to go back in time and relive all those good moments with the people we love the most but we simply can not, we simply have to content ourselves with in our mind, I know how difficult it is, then knowing all this I just want to ask you guys enjoy every moment because they're going to turn just souvenirs and you will continue to want to revive them but her deep vain be pleased to have lived it intensely.

Sinto muito irmão mas culpar o outro como tentativa de absolvição não vai funcionar.

Stop torturing yourself.

Vai ficar tudo bem. Não tão bem quanto eu queria mas o bem que deveria ficar.

Stay weird

Mom, help me to be a better person. Mom, I don't know who I'm anymore. Mom... I miss you.

Things can change, I truly believe in this, and you should do too.

Just believe in God and all will be okay.

I just want can finally breathe relieved.

I'm afraid of the future. I should not, but I'm.

Asking for help is not wrong, it is necessary to live and survive.

It will be what it should be.

BE FREE!

Live the moment.

I always thought that not having friends was better than having friends and being alone was the easiest way not to hurt me, but actually avoiding getting others hurt you, makes you increasingly vulnerable.

Hey! Speaking of friends, now I have 2 friends! I'm so happy! And I'm working to get more friends.

I'm so busy worrying about school, friends, social life until I forget to feel something.

You know what? Fuck you. I will not be begging for your love.

Dear December, I waited for you all year and now you are come, my love, I could not be happier.