I decided to get out of my head. Ok let me explain. I'm more focused on my "fantasies" than in my real life, because it's cooler, but I have to live my life and that's what I'll do.

Don't expect that they care because they will not.

And I love the stars, not only because they're beautiful but because even after death they continue shining.

You built up a world of magic because your real life is tragic.

- Paramore

Merda, eu sou um clichê.

Eu quero poder vomitar tudo que eu sinto, poder gritar tudo que está preso dentro de mim e que todos realmente ouvissem, eles não precisam se importar, apenas ouvir. Eu queria que eles me enxergassem. Que eles, todos eles, realmente vissem quem eu sou, o que eu sinto, eu não me importaria com os julgamentos, nem com os olhares de nojo mas seria bom se eles me julgassem e enojassem alguém que eu realmente sou, não essa pessoa que eles imaginam que eu sou quando me veem passeando nas ruas.

I just want to run away from everything. Want to run away from my thoughts. Away from it all.

I create situations in my head every day. I pretend I'm someone else, I have another life, a better life and happier. I create these fairy tales to escape the tragedy that is my life.

Why everything can not just work? Why we can not just be happy with all the people we love by our side? Why do they have to leave us? Why they have to hurt us, make us cry? I can't get it, it just.. make no fucking sense to me.

There will always be that voice inside of our head saying bad things but don't let her win, we're bigger and better than her.

I'm weirder than you think.

I do not feel beautiful or ugly, I feel ... normal. I feel kind useless. I feel like I'm not important to anyone. I can not imagine anyone caring to me or liking me just for who I am. I feel awful. I'm awful.

Toda garota deveria ver esta imagem pelo menos uma vez na vida.

E acreditar nela.

I watch a TV series called "skins uk" ok many people find that this series only have teenagers using drugs and having sex and it's true, but not only has this, I learned from this series that everyone has problems, and no one has a perfect life, everyone has problems, even if it does not appear. Do not judge the happiness of a person by the smile she has on her face.

WE have to forget that thing of "I'm not pretty enough" or "I'm not skinny enough" or "I'm not good enough". You, who are reading this and think you're not pretty, skinny enough, or anything else that let you down, YOU'RE WORTH IT, we're perfect the way we are. Of course there will always be that voice inside of our head saying bad things but don't let her win, we're bigger and better than her.

Before I did not feel pretty enough to go on a party or go on a friend's house, but I realized that this is fucking ridiculous and I decided that I'm going out more and have more fun, ok I'm not finding my life is a skins episode but I will not be stuck indoors, I will free myself and live my life.

Let yourself free to commit mistakes.

I'll do things my way, I will not live according to the rules of another person.

I'm one of those peoples who just don't give a shit.

I need to organize my thoughts and review my principles.