Why people are so desperate for relationships? like, if i'm gonna spend my time with someone will be my hole life or nothing there's no between.

Sometimes just a smile can change the whole thing.

I know that my mind is according to my age when I am asked to think of a very ancient epoch and I think in the 80s.

Yes, I'm juvenile

I am teenager and I'm living fine without a boyfriend. What those bitches movies of the 80s were thinking when they changed his whole appearance because of a guy?

Life is not a hundred percent sad and miserable, just focus on what is good and stop being so emo.

I have to remind myself that sometimes.

The world is completely wrong in so many ways that people have stopped paying attention and simply chose to live in their fantasy worlds.

Growth should not mean "make your dreams come true" instead of "let your dreams behind"?

I am terrified of growing up. The whole idea of ​​changing my whole perspective of the world just does not seem right.

Maybe I'm growing up or maybe I should.

Alright, vacation. I was on vacation.

I wonder if every single person in the world has a friend, if there's a person that don't have anybody that can count, that is simply... alone.

They say that society itself defines what is right and what is wrong but I am part of society and never agreed to judge a person by sexual orientation or skin color.

Who defines what is right and what is wrong in society?

You can always be good and help the others, just make sure that you don't let yourself apart.

That's my sense of selfishness.

Being selfish and being bad are totally different things. Being selfish is to be happy putting yourself first. Being bad is to be happy with the sorrow of others and one thing does not justify another.

I'm selfish, and proud of it, you know why? Well I put the happiness of others in front of my happiness and this fucked me up and not make that mistake again.

I know I have not come here a lot lately. I'm on vacation and I'm trying to make the most of it all so I'll probably post once a week at most.

Be kind with yourself.

Let's start all over again. This time I gonna get it. Let's do it.

You know its never too late to get up and start all over again, you know its never too late there's gotta be a better way.

I realized that my computer stays really cool with bra on.

But don't worry, I'll get it.

Damn. I've to do a lot of stuff in this shit.

I have to stop chasing love so he might notice me.

I've to start to live in reality. I'm not sure if I want to but I know I have to.

Many questions, no answers.

I know I am worthy of love however is there someone in this world who can love me without having any obligation or nothing in return besides my love?

What's fall in love in first place?

Should I let myself fall in love with someone?

How can I stand next to you all alone and do nothing at all?

Fuck that. I can do anything.

I need a moment for me and myself.

Passei tanto tempo sendo aquilo que não sou que esqueci como eu era.

We can always improve, right?

Know when you want to explain something but not sure how? When you have something stuck in the throat and you want her to leave but she does not come out? I have been like this in the last days. I do not know how to stop this feeling.

Willpower

I will not keep everything to me but also will not let others become judging my thoughts and who I am.

What happened?

I spent so much time being what I am not, that I forgot how I was.

I'll change the world. You should do the same.

Another state of mind, forget about the time. Where nobody can find me, leave the world behind me. I put my headphones and go.

- Hedley

I'm always wondering "what's wrong with me?" But I do not think there's anything wrong with me, not really, but it is what it seems. Because, sometimes idk what is "right" for me is not for others, what is "beautiful" to me is not for others, it seems that my perception of the world is different from the perception of everyone around me. It may not be "right" or "wrong" but it's still hard to be a circle in a square world.

We are beautiful and fragile.

Fuck you then.

I HATE HAVING TO GO TO SCHOOL, I HATE HAVING TO TAKE GOOD NOTES, I HATE HAVING TO ALWAYS BE THE "GOOD GIRL", I HATE ALL THIS SHIT And I just wanna run away.

I just want to not give a fuck for a second and just do what I want to do, not what I "have" to.

I'm tired of think that everything will going wrong. I'm tired of worry too much. I'm tired of not enjoy what's happening right now because I'm worrying with tomorrow. I just wanna fucking relax and not feel fault about that.

Why am i so paranoid every single time? SHIT SHIT SHIT I'm so tired of it.

I was already odd before it turning fashion.

Everything is harmful if used in excess, less peace and love and oddly enough those are the only things that people use less.

Actually, I'm going to preach love. Okay I'm nothing romantic and this is not the love that I'm talking about. I'm talking about the real love, one that comes along with the kindness and calm, that love without prejudice or malice, just the pure love.

I'm thinking about becoming Buddhist. I'm tired of following a religion that preaches hatred by the people they simply demonstrate what they are for real. They say "it's in the Bible" but the God that I believe would not do it because he preaches love above all.

Amazingly, I'm trying to be a better person and I'm getting and I'm very happy for that.

Why are people so interested in the lives of others? Like, why the hell they need this "certainty" that are better than others? WHY they are not content simply to live your own life? I can not understand humanity.

I decided to get out of my head. Ok let me explain. I'm more focused on my "fantasies" than in my real life, because it's cooler, but I have to live my life and that's what I'll do.

Don't expect that they care because they will not.

And I love the stars, not only because they're beautiful but because even after death they continue shining.

You built up a world of magic because your real life is tragic.

- Paramore

Merda, eu sou um clichê.

Eu quero poder vomitar tudo que eu sinto, poder gritar tudo que está preso dentro de mim e que todos realmente ouvissem, eles não precisam se importar, apenas ouvir. Eu queria que eles me enxergassem. Que eles, todos eles, realmente vissem quem eu sou, o que eu sinto, eu não me importaria com os julgamentos, nem com os olhares de nojo mas seria bom se eles me julgassem e enojassem alguém que eu realmente sou, não essa pessoa que eles imaginam que eu sou quando me veem passeando nas ruas.

I just want to run away from everything. Want to run away from my thoughts. Away from it all.

I create situations in my head every day. I pretend I'm someone else, I have another life, a better life and happier. I create these fairy tales to escape the tragedy that is my life.

Why everything can not just work? Why we can not just be happy with all the people we love by our side? Why do they have to leave us? Why they have to hurt us, make us cry? I can't get it, it just.. make no fucking sense to me.

There will always be that voice inside of our head saying bad things but don't let her win, we're bigger and better than her.

I'm weirder than you think.

I do not feel beautiful or ugly, I feel ... normal. I feel kind useless. I feel like I'm not important to anyone. I can not imagine anyone caring to me or liking me just for who I am. I feel awful. I'm awful.

Toda garota deveria ver esta imagem pelo menos uma vez na vida.

E acreditar nela.

I watch a TV series called "skins uk" ok many people find that this series only have teenagers using drugs and having sex and it's true, but not only has this, I learned from this series that everyone has problems, and no one has a perfect life, everyone has problems, even if it does not appear. Do not judge the happiness of a person by the smile she has on her face.

WE have to forget that thing of "I'm not pretty enough" or "I'm not skinny enough" or "I'm not good enough". You, who are reading this and think you're not pretty, skinny enough, or anything else that let you down, YOU'RE WORTH IT, we're perfect the way we are. Of course there will always be that voice inside of our head saying bad things but don't let her win, we're bigger and better than her.

Before I did not feel pretty enough to go on a party or go on a friend's house, but I realized that this is fucking ridiculous and I decided that I'm going out more and have more fun, ok I'm not finding my life is a skins episode but I will not be stuck indoors, I will free myself and live my life.

Let yourself free to commit mistakes.

I'll do things my way, I will not live according to the rules of another person.

I'm one of those peoples who just don't give a shit.

I need to organize my thoughts and review my principles.

I've tried so much to lose weight, already tried diets, stop eating, vomit, nutritional education, fitness but I could never get the weight I want. What I'm trying now is the systems goals a week, okay, I know how much my idol (Demi) suffered from it but damn it is very difficult to see everyday skinny and pretty girls being praised for being thin and pretty and I being left out because I'm fat. I never had a boyfriend, the boys never talk to me or look at me, no one ever looked into my eyes and said "wow, you are very pretty" Everyone is talking to me slim down, saying that if I was thin my life would be better. I spent my whole life listening to that, I think that was my brainwashing.

My body has always been a problem for me, I mean, as long as the others began to say that being fat was a problem I try to lose weight and not go a day without thinking about it, I try not to care about that and accept me the way I'm but ... I'm not sure how to explain it right, let's say it's like I was brainwashed and this idea of ​​being thin had been implanted in my head and when I try to change my mind, as much as I want I can not

My head is very confused right now but it's probably because I'm at a new school and I'm not used to so much work but it will pass, I hope.

Well, I've said before I really like the singer Demi lovato but not only that, I not only "like very much" her, I LOVE her. Okay, this may seem cliche to some Lovatics but she saved my life, she LITERALLY saved my life. Before I knew her work and everything she's been through I was "lost" I hated myself and others and thought that my life was not worth it but after she appeared in my life I saw that I can overcome all I already spent and I can win this war, she gave me hope and that's why I'm grateful to her for help me being who I am now.

"Just like a snowflake, there is no one like you on this planet. Do not waste time trying to imitate others. Be the best version of yourself and show the world" - Staying Strong by Demi Lovato

I have no words to explain how much I love this quote, it's all I wanted expressed in words.

I've got tired of saying this but my English is terrible because most of the things I write here is translated by google but now I'm doing a course in English and I hope that in a few months can already write my thoughts and sentences without the google.

I always give plenty of advice here but I do not follow them, or at least did not follow, I want to follow my own advice but I do not know how to do it, you know? I wish I had photographic memory to remember all my advice because sometimes I forget and end up doing what others want or do. I can not say "from now on I'll just follow my advice" because that would be a lie and almost impossible but I swear I'll try.

You should do the same.

I'll change the world.

I'm one of those people who are so insane as to be geniuses.

Honestly I write a lot of shit on this blog, but have posts that are simply perfect. I'm not bragging but it's true.

I'll tell the war that is going on inside of me because I'm about to explode. Okay, so I trusted a person (not a boy, only my best friend) I always wanted a best friend when it happened and I was very happy but she has several other friends and I have hardly anyone else and we are moving away and I confess even against every fiber of my body, I'm afraid to lose this friendship that means so much to me. I want to say that to her or do something but I do not want to seem weak. I'm very confused.

We are all important in some way.

Where we can be better every day but we insist on being worse. What's our problem?

I do not hate people, I hate their attitudes.

I want to fix the world but first I have to fix me and I'm not sure if I have concert.

We can all change the world, I know I know, it's fucking cliche but it's true. We let ourselves be carried away by pessimism but I still have hopes. I'm not afraid of disappointment, I'm not a coward, I'm brave enough to still have hope and try to make a better world for myself, I need to try because if I accommodate me with the situation I am now everything will really from bad to worse so I'll try even though I can not get, I have to try. We have.

My head is a mess, always has some problem in my head that I have to solve, always have that voice saying that something missing. I hate feeling this way.

Do a favor to yourself and read a book.

I will no longer be keeping things to myself. I'll say what I think and what I want. I could never be one hundred percent myself anywhere because I was afraid of being judged but you know what? FUCK THAT SHIT now all I want most is to be happy and have no way better to be happy than to be yourself, belief and happiness of others always in second place, selfishness? No, self esteem because I can not let people make me down and fuck who bother with this. Smile and walk on the floor because I still have a whole world to explore and try to improve.

There's nothing wrong with not being liked by everyone, no one can please everyone and no one should try because it sure will not get it.

Before I wondered what was wrong with me because I did everything for people like me but nobody liked, but now I realized that actually that was my biggest mistake, I should not (no one should) be trying to adapt, or change who you really are to please others. I realized that just be yourself and the right people will like you. (this is super cliche, I know but it's true)

Love hurts, this is inevitable, as inevitable as falling in love.

But this is kind of a good thing because it means that I feel comfortable enough to speak up unneeded things with you.

I also think it was a little unnecessary to have it posted here.

I think I'm bisexual.

Sometimes I think about everything I've done in my life and just think oh shit!

I should be dead. I should have died instead of my mother. I am a useless, I do nothing, I'm selfish, I'm bad, weird, I'm just another crazy in the world. Everything that I bring to my family's pain and suffering. The world would be so much better if I were dead. If my mother were alive in my place, my sister would be better, would be happy, my family would be happier. I'm a natural disaster.

I wanted to know how to be normal. Must be boring.

It's weird to post their biggest secret on the internet but still I feel relieved to have confessed it.

Speaking of humor, I talk to myself, not worse, I speak as if I had someone with me, even worse, I create a situation where people in my head of my day to day, or even famous people are and talk to them as if everything it was real, and are not hallucinations, I know nothing of the pound is true but still I keep. You guys must think I'm crazy and even I think so, but it's stronger than me.

Em português caso vocês não entendam: E falando em loucuras, eu falo sozinha, não pior, eu falo como se tivesse alguém comigo, pior ainda, eu crio uma situação na minha cabeça onde pessoas do meu dia a dia, ou até pessoas famosas estão e falo com elas como se tudo aquilo fosse real, e não são alucinações, eu sei que nada da quilo é verdade mas mesmo assim eu continuo. Voces devem achar que eu sou louca e até eu acho isso, mas é mais forte do que eu.

It's kind of crazy to be me because I can not speak of my follies, foibles or my problems to anyone I know but I can post it on the internet, a place where everyone can see.

I feel trapped. I feel like I'm in a movie and the movie is my life and I do not know how to get out. I feel like a robot that was programmed to do the things and never be able to do what he wants. I'd feel like someone managing and controlling all I do and everything I say. I feel trapped in a box and have no idea how to get out.

There's nothing wrong with being a little selfish sometimes.

There is nothing better than reading a book and sipping a cup of tea to ignore the problems and remember that a happy life is made of small things.

My blog already has over a year and I did not even realize.

Well, my computer arrived today (took a little longer than I expected but arrived)

always wanted to have freedom, but what I did not realize is that I already had that freedom, I was born with it, all I needed was to allow me.

I'm happy to be who I am, just do what I do, say what I say, just for being me! I know the times (more than I'd like) I make mistakes but I learn from them and I'm taking life, being who I am, and that, to me, is more than enough.

I decided to re-do my self-esteem because it is not worth staying suffering by what other people think I am.

Well, I'm back! I have arranged a new computer (which will still arrive this week) And, well, I'm with plans to become "the new me" (Which, as I already said, it's just that you guys already know only a little better) and these plans are nothing radical, I will not change sex or religion, I'm just going to review my basic concepts and'll enhances them.

Just came to tell you that my computer broke so ... Well, as I know I will not be able to stop in here, I'll just go once a week at most.

- Ser egoísta não é nada bom.
- Ser triste também e nem por isso eu fui feliz a vida inteira.

- (Anonymous)

Make sure your best guide is your intuition.

Sometimes the answer is yes and sometimes not, and sometimes the answer is pizza.

We all have within himself a poet.

There are many beautiful and talented souls in this world, and you are one of them.

Remember: every life has a purpose. Find yours.

Making others feel bad about themselves will not make you feel good about yourself.

Forget about loving someone else before you love yourself because it always ends up with someone hurt and in 100% of cases it's you.

I can not write the smartest things in the world, much less the most poetic but I write the things I feel, and that to me is enough.

There will be bad days but there will also be good days, not good, wonderful days and these, my friends, are the days that will be worth.

Just be free and everything will be fine.

P.s. that person is not different of who I really am, it's just a better version of myself.

Well, this year I decided to become the person I wanted to be last year, and I'll be.

Well here's a little of my new year's night: Well, I stayed upset, I get a little drunk, I talked shit with my best friend and was amazing because we talk about being friends til the world end and its good have a friend til there, summarizing was diferent of the another year and I loved.