I've tried so much to lose weight, already tried diets, stop eating, vomit, nutritional education, fitness but I could never get the weight I want. What I'm trying now is the systems goals a week, okay, I know how much my idol (Demi) suffered from it but damn it is very difficult to see everyday skinny and pretty girls being praised for being thin and pretty and I being left out because I'm fat. I never had a boyfriend, the boys never talk to me or look at me, no one ever looked into my eyes and said "wow, you are very pretty" Everyone is talking to me slim down, saying that if I was thin my life would be better. I spent my whole life listening to that, I think that was my brainwashing.