I should be dead. I should have died instead of my mother. I am a useless, I do nothing, I'm selfish, I'm bad, weird, I'm just another crazy in the world. Everything that I bring to my family's pain and suffering. The world would be so much better if I were dead. If my mother were alive in my place, my sister would be better, would be happy, my family would be happier. I'm a natural disaster.

I wanted to know how to be normal. Must be boring.

It's weird to post their biggest secret on the internet but still I feel relieved to have confessed it.

Speaking of humor, I talk to myself, not worse, I speak as if I had someone with me, even worse, I create a situation where people in my head of my day to day, or even famous people are and talk to them as if everything it was real, and are not hallucinations, I know nothing of the pound is true but still I keep. You guys must think I'm crazy and even I think so, but it's stronger than me.

Em português caso vocês não entendam: E falando em loucuras, eu falo sozinha, não pior, eu falo como se tivesse alguém comigo, pior ainda, eu crio uma situação na minha cabeça onde pessoas do meu dia a dia, ou até pessoas famosas estão e falo com elas como se tudo aquilo fosse real, e não são alucinações, eu sei que nada da quilo é verdade mas mesmo assim eu continuo. Voces devem achar que eu sou louca e até eu acho isso, mas é mais forte do que eu.

It's kind of crazy to be me because I can not speak of my follies, foibles or my problems to anyone I know but I can post it on the internet, a place where everyone can see.

I feel trapped. I feel like I'm in a movie and the movie is my life and I do not know how to get out. I feel like a robot that was programmed to do the things and never be able to do what he wants. I'd feel like someone managing and controlling all I do and everything I say. I feel trapped in a box and have no idea how to get out.

There's nothing wrong with being a little selfish sometimes.

There is nothing better than reading a book and sipping a cup of tea to ignore the problems and remember that a happy life is made of small things.

My blog already has over a year and I did not even realize.

Well, my computer arrived today (took a little longer than I expected but arrived)

always wanted to have freedom, but what I did not realize is that I already had that freedom, I was born with it, all I needed was to allow me.

I'm happy to be who I am, just do what I do, say what I say, just for being me! I know the times (more than I'd like) I make mistakes but I learn from them and I'm taking life, being who I am, and that, to me, is more than enough.

I decided to re-do my self-esteem because it is not worth staying suffering by what other people think I am.

Well, I'm back! I have arranged a new computer (which will still arrive this week) And, well, I'm with plans to become "the new me" (Which, as I already said, it's just that you guys already know only a little better) and these plans are nothing radical, I will not change sex or religion, I'm just going to review my basic concepts and'll enhances them.

Just came to tell you that my computer broke so ... Well, as I know I will not be able to stop in here, I'll just go once a week at most.

- Ser egoísta não é nada bom.
- Ser triste também e nem por isso eu fui feliz a vida inteira.

- (Anonymous)

Make sure your best guide is your intuition.

Sometimes the answer is yes and sometimes not, and sometimes the answer is pizza.

We all have within himself a poet.

There are many beautiful and talented souls in this world, and you are one of them.

Remember: every life has a purpose. Find yours.

Making others feel bad about themselves will not make you feel good about yourself.

Forget about loving someone else before you love yourself because it always ends up with someone hurt and in 100% of cases it's you.

I can not write the smartest things in the world, much less the most poetic but I write the things I feel, and that to me is enough.

There will be bad days but there will also be good days, not good, wonderful days and these, my friends, are the days that will be worth.

Just be free and everything will be fine.

P.s. that person is not different of who I really am, it's just a better version of myself.

Well, this year I decided to become the person I wanted to be last year, and I'll be.

Well here's a little of my new year's night: Well, I stayed upset, I get a little drunk, I talked shit with my best friend and was amazing because we talk about being friends til the world end and its good have a friend til there, summarizing was diferent of the another year and I loved.